For the month of May I am joining a thirty-one day blogging challenge! In this challenge we are given three prompts every day to choose from. We can either choose one or all three of the prompts. Today I chose the prompt “What is your greatest accomplishment?” I chose this prompt because I instantly thought of my daughter.
When I first found out that I was pregnant I did not think I could do it. I was only seventeen, how the heck am I going to do this. Even though I had so much family support, it is just not the same. Everything is on me, and me only. When RaeLynn was first-born things were actually kind of easy. I did have really bad post partum, but she was the easiest baby. I was so blessed.
She only cried when she was hungry or had a dirty diaper. She loved her naps, and LOVED to talk! RaeLynn had so many facial expressions, it was never a dull moment with her! I could be having the worse day of my life, my anxiety could be through the roof or I could be deep in depression.
How could you not smile at this beautiful, silly baby? Even as I’m writing this I cant help but smile. There were some very long nights where all I did was cry my eyes out because I could not get her to stop crying. Which only made things worse. She could feel my stress and anxiety and she did not like that. She would cry more and more until I had to put her down in her crib and let her cry. I hated doing that, I felt like such an awful mom because I could not comfort her. I never realized how bad my anxiety controlled my life, until I became a mother.
She has ALWAYS been a little sassy, diva baby. Let me tell you, the older she got the worse it got! It is in a funny way though, not like the bratty way that no one can stand. She totally gets her attitude from me. I can’t deny that what’s so ever!
How could you just not love her! As she gets older, and I am seeing her grow as a little human being. I just couldn’t be more proud of her. She is so smart. I mean unbelievably smart. She just recently took her kindergarten test and scored a 94! They told me the average kid scored a 50. The only thing she missed was drawing a diamond, that’s it! She knows Spanish, she has been coloring inside the lines for over a year now. She can’t count to over one hundred. She can memorize any book or song so quickly sometimes she only has to listen 1-2 times!
My brother is graduating a year early with his doctorate because he is so smart. Me on the other hand I’m more street smart than book smart. My daughter is going to be like her uncle I feel, and I’m okay with that! I will support her in whatever decision she decides to make. I don’t want her to end up like me as a teenager. Being pregnant at seventeen years old, and raising a baby on her own. I want her to go to college and be successful in life!
She is my angel, and my world. I have been pushing myself to become a better person not only for myself, but for my daughter.
RaeLynn is by far the greatest accomplishment in my life. Bringing this beautiful little girl into this world is the best thing I have ever done. God gave me her a little early, but he knew I could do it. He blessed me with the best thing in the entire world. There is not one thing I would change in my life, because without her I would not be where I am today.
You will forever and always be my greatest accomplishment in life. I will always be here for you and love you no matter what.
Mommy loves you RaeLynn Marie<3